Nothing to wrap up. Was so depressed all weekend I slept the whole time. Didn't work out Friday, was resting from Thursday's attacking of Newport. Rested Sat for my test Sunday. Slept through the test Sunday. Did do some GTG C&P's Sunday w/ the 24KG so I wouldn't feel totally useless.
Either way I slept all weekend. Still feel physically exhausted from the emotional wreck that I am.
I am going to go home and do Newport again as hard as I can to make myself feel something because at moment I feel dead and numb inside, like I am in a walking dream. In about 2 hours I will get Newport out and try to feel alive again even though every inch of my being wants to crawl inside a hole or a bottle and hide and wait for inevitability to find me. I am coming unraveled- pray for me.
2 comments:
Anthony,
I'm sorry to hear things are so bad. Hope they get better soon.
Hey Anthony,
I'm praying for you, brother. Remember I felt the same way a few months ago? I was down in the dumps, depressed, didn't even feel like doing my favorite thing in the world which was working out. I was in that horrible funk for about 3-4 months. However, today is a new day, and things WILL get brighter. Keep praying, try to smile, and keep reflecting on the inside. I'm always in your corner, so give me a shout if you need to vent. We'll attack that prowler when you come to Austin!! It will kick the shit out of both of us!! :-)
Praying for you, bro!
Nia
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