Newport and I did not get along so well today. My worst performance ever- don't know why. I did all of it, even though I did about half of every round. I took a break on every round except for the ab portions and the walking push-up round.
I'll take solace in the fact that I am on my way to successfully completing my second week of my AOS DVD resolution. However, my performance today still blew goats.
DIrty goats too, not the cute, domesticated, raised-for4H-competition-and/or-petting-zoo-goats; we're talking dirty, grimey, wild mountain goats.
Yep- those goats.
Tomorrow is field day.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
A pleasant suprise
So my resolution is to do AOS DVD's 3 days a week. It was originally going to be Newport, 3 days a week.
Now I LOVE AOS products- not one has ever let me down. BUT- I need variety. The idea of doing Newport today made me want to hide. Working out should never make me want to hide. So I was thinking, "damnnit, what do i do?"
THEN, i remembered I had Firepower and had never really done it. I grabbed the other 20KG off the porch, popped that bad boy in and started to get down. Some thoughts-
1. I really really enjoyed the mobility warm-up round and the double KB drills were a lot of fun. 2 Kb's at once really really loads your core up.
2. Alarm 1 with "long rests" is some false advertisement- those were not long rests. HA!
3. The alternating double clean is the hardest exercise I have ever done. Period. Anthony D calls it a smoker during the round on the DVD and he isnt kidding. I did 30seconds of the 1 min round and almost died. I took 10 seconds off and when I tried to get back on it, it wasnt really happening.
4. Firepower worked my muscles more than my lunges. I had to stop but not b/c I couldnt breathe but b/c whatever was working was cramping so bad and burning. I even did (parts of) the 5 min snatch test at the end. I NEVER have anything left after round 8 in Newport. Firepower felt like more of a muscle building workout than an endurance work out (I'm sure its both- thats just what it felt like).
It was a breath of really fresh air and exactly what I needed to mix it up. 2 days a week Newport , 1 day a week Firepower or vice versa. I'm really looking forward to doing Firepower again and I am pleased that I could succceed on the double KB drills.
Now I LOVE AOS products- not one has ever let me down. BUT- I need variety. The idea of doing Newport today made me want to hide. Working out should never make me want to hide. So I was thinking, "damnnit, what do i do?"
THEN, i remembered I had Firepower and had never really done it. I grabbed the other 20KG off the porch, popped that bad boy in and started to get down. Some thoughts-
1. I really really enjoyed the mobility warm-up round and the double KB drills were a lot of fun. 2 Kb's at once really really loads your core up.
2. Alarm 1 with "long rests" is some false advertisement- those were not long rests. HA!
3. The alternating double clean is the hardest exercise I have ever done. Period. Anthony D calls it a smoker during the round on the DVD and he isnt kidding. I did 30seconds of the 1 min round and almost died. I took 10 seconds off and when I tried to get back on it, it wasnt really happening.
4. Firepower worked my muscles more than my lunges. I had to stop but not b/c I couldnt breathe but b/c whatever was working was cramping so bad and burning. I even did (parts of) the 5 min snatch test at the end. I NEVER have anything left after round 8 in Newport. Firepower felt like more of a muscle building workout than an endurance work out (I'm sure its both- thats just what it felt like).
It was a breath of really fresh air and exactly what I needed to mix it up. 2 days a week Newport , 1 day a week Firepower or vice versa. I'm really looking forward to doing Firepower again and I am pleased that I could succceed on the double KB drills.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
One time for your mind...
1. Met wife @ 4:30 for social obligations
2. Not in mood at all for social obligations- my mask is cracking and being around people i dont know is difficult.
3. Got home at 8:40PM from social obligations. Did not drink on purpose so I could still do Newport. Ate light dinner on purpose so I could still do Newport.
4. Did Newport- as hard as I could. I did rounds 1-4 harder than I have ever done. Kept up with Anthony D 97% move for move.
5. As a result of #4, by round 5 I started to fall off and at end of round 5 I really thought I about quitting b/c I felt like I was dying. I immediatley told my brain to shut the fuck up, that this was our time and our place where we can control what happens and that the workout was getting finished and it was getting finished strong.
6. I get my ass into gear by middle of round 6 and I finish strong.
7. I almost vomit.
8. I still feel naseuous and shaky and Newport is still the hardest thing I've done- but I did it despite all of me not wanting to.
That makes me feel good.
2. Not in mood at all for social obligations- my mask is cracking and being around people i dont know is difficult.
3. Got home at 8:40PM from social obligations. Did not drink on purpose so I could still do Newport. Ate light dinner on purpose so I could still do Newport.
4. Did Newport- as hard as I could. I did rounds 1-4 harder than I have ever done. Kept up with Anthony D 97% move for move.
5. As a result of #4, by round 5 I started to fall off and at end of round 5 I really thought I about quitting b/c I felt like I was dying. I immediatley told my brain to shut the fuck up, that this was our time and our place where we can control what happens and that the workout was getting finished and it was getting finished strong.
6. I get my ass into gear by middle of round 6 and I finish strong.
7. I almost vomit.
8. I still feel naseuous and shaky and Newport is still the hardest thing I've done- but I did it despite all of me not wanting to.
That makes me feel good.
wishful thinking
pull ups and GTG C&Ps w/ teh 24KG did not happen yesterday. I was just over life and gave up- BUT- not today.
Me and Newport, around 6PM. It better bring its fucking game face.
Me and Newport, around 6PM. It better bring its fucking game face.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Newport+ME=
sore sore sore. my abs are a wreck. when you do all those round as hard as you can you can really tell the progression it is supposed to have on your core.
my obliques are wrecked. my lower core is wrecked. pretty much everything from right below my waist line to about the bottom of my sternum is full of lactic acid- AWESOME.
it makes me feel alive. i need it. i need more of it. i'm going to have to try hard not to overtrain right now.
i posted something earlier today. i deleted it. if any of you read it- sorry. it was a little much- even for me.
pull ups today and some more GTG presses with the 24KG.
my obliques are wrecked. my lower core is wrecked. pretty much everything from right below my waist line to about the bottom of my sternum is full of lactic acid- AWESOME.
it makes me feel alive. i need it. i need more of it. i'm going to have to try hard not to overtrain right now.
i posted something earlier today. i deleted it. if any of you read it- sorry. it was a little much- even for me.
pull ups today and some more GTG presses with the 24KG.
Monday, June 23, 2008
"... sed libro nos a malo..."
did Newport again as hard as I could. Have to be honest, i took more breaks than I did last Thursday. I still pushed as hard as I could. Got dizzy for a while and saw stars- worked through it.
Those C&Ps I did yesterday with the 24KGs actually made me a little fatigued in my legs and in my shoulders- I could feel it today.
Fuck that squat/kick round and fuck that overhead lunge. That killed me today. Also, I hate watching him do that hot potato. I hate that drill, I don't have a small enough KB for it. In the DVD it looks like he is using a 12KG, little me doing it with the 16KG SUCKS. I tried it hard today. Today was just hard in general. I didn't want to do it. I wanted to give up and sleep. I'm trying to fight back when and where I can and Newport is going to be my battlefield. 3 days a week- M, W, Sat... me and Newport, toe-to-toe.
I don't feel better right now. But I am so physically spent I almost don't care. I am predicting a sleepless nite. Msg me if you're up. I'll be around evaluating life.
(side note- sorry this is so dramatic lately. my wife can only hear me loose my mind so much before it starts to hurt her feelings- she'll worry about me too much. also i use this for accountability. i do not lie to myself on this. i do not lie to yall on this. b/c of that i can't leave this out. this is me. its where i am. its effecting my life in all aspects- fitness included. thanks for your comments and support. it really does matter to me a lot. makes me feel not so alone in this when i feel lost and helpless already.)
(side note to life- consider this as me, going down in writing, saying FUCK YOU)
Those C&Ps I did yesterday with the 24KGs actually made me a little fatigued in my legs and in my shoulders- I could feel it today.
Fuck that squat/kick round and fuck that overhead lunge. That killed me today. Also, I hate watching him do that hot potato. I hate that drill, I don't have a small enough KB for it. In the DVD it looks like he is using a 12KG, little me doing it with the 16KG SUCKS. I tried it hard today. Today was just hard in general. I didn't want to do it. I wanted to give up and sleep. I'm trying to fight back when and where I can and Newport is going to be my battlefield. 3 days a week- M, W, Sat... me and Newport, toe-to-toe.
I don't feel better right now. But I am so physically spent I almost don't care. I am predicting a sleepless nite. Msg me if you're up. I'll be around evaluating life.
(side note- sorry this is so dramatic lately. my wife can only hear me loose my mind so much before it starts to hurt her feelings- she'll worry about me too much. also i use this for accountability. i do not lie to myself on this. i do not lie to yall on this. b/c of that i can't leave this out. this is me. its where i am. its effecting my life in all aspects- fitness included. thanks for your comments and support. it really does matter to me a lot. makes me feel not so alone in this when i feel lost and helpless already.)
(side note to life- consider this as me, going down in writing, saying FUCK YOU)
Weekend Wrap Up
Nothing to wrap up. Was so depressed all weekend I slept the whole time. Didn't work out Friday, was resting from Thursday's attacking of Newport. Rested Sat for my test Sunday. Slept through the test Sunday. Did do some GTG C&P's Sunday w/ the 24KG so I wouldn't feel totally useless.
Either way I slept all weekend. Still feel physically exhausted from the emotional wreck that I am.
I am going to go home and do Newport again as hard as I can to make myself feel something because at moment I feel dead and numb inside, like I am in a walking dream. In about 2 hours I will get Newport out and try to feel alive again even though every inch of my being wants to crawl inside a hole or a bottle and hide and wait for inevitability to find me. I am coming unraveled- pray for me.
Either way I slept all weekend. Still feel physically exhausted from the emotional wreck that I am.
I am going to go home and do Newport again as hard as I can to make myself feel something because at moment I feel dead and numb inside, like I am in a walking dream. In about 2 hours I will get Newport out and try to feel alive again even though every inch of my being wants to crawl inside a hole or a bottle and hide and wait for inevitability to find me. I am coming unraveled- pray for me.
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